Today, I feel better than I have in a few weeks. I guess the doctors know what they are talking about when they look at all the side effects going on in me and say “you need a break”.
That happened on Monday. I went in for treatment #25 and met with my doctor afterwards. She took one look at my throat and the sores in my mouth and said you need some time off. The problem is, I didn’t want time off. I still have 12 treatments to go and every morning I wake up this week, I will still have 12 treatments to go. I just want to be done.
I want to be done so badly that last Friday morning I wrote a letter to both of my doctors involved and said “I quit”. I never sent the letter, but it sure did feel good to get it off my chest. I was miserable and hating life.
That night I loaded up the car and went to a benefit dinner that Paragon Church and First Baptist – Rio Rancho held for my family and me. I didn’t want to go because I wasn’t feeling well but since both my Father-In-Law (Chester) and Pastor Si were going to speak to challenge me, I thought I should go. When I arrived, I was blown away by the support of each person there. There were so many people helping and serving as well as eating, it just said to you – “YOU CAN DO THIS. We’ve got your back!” Since the dinner, Christy and I received all of the cards and gifts to encourage us to keep fighting this fight. I cannot tell you how much that means to our family. We feel so loved and supported.
On top of that, all of the volunteers have stepped up at Paragon Church to get the jobs done every Sunday. One of my biggest worries about all of this was “what is going to happen to the church while I am down and out.” God, like always, has had the whole thing under control. He is constantly reminding me that “church” is not about me – it’s about Him, and with the true Leader leading, Paragon has not missed a step in the process of reaching Rio Rancho for Christ.
I ask for your continued prayer support for each member of our family. Only 12 treatments left. The last treatment day is June 15. Side Effects last for a few weeks/months after that.
Even with that seeming to be a long way off… I have seen two quotes in the last few days that challenged me to go the next leg…
“Don't let the devil take what you have left just because you can't get over what you've lost.”
“Character is built on daily decisions. Never let character give way to convenience.”
Thank you all.